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Even people who have peak spiritual experiences can quickly retreat back into their heads.

When you finally drop out of an unreal relationship with spirituality and into a moment by moment intimacy with life, there is a profound shift.

This doesn’t look like fireworks and isn’t a fat slice of samadhi pie. It’s magical, no doubt, but in a very grounded and normal way. You have a visceral, in the moment relationship with Time, with Karma—with all the stuff that used to exist only as Lego pieces in your head.

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It’s totally normal for you to try to accredit the awakened status of various people who claim to be enlightened.

From my perspective, this is just a quirky thing that Sleepwalkers do.

It’s like a Tinder thing….yes, no, left, right, swipe, swipe, swipe. And in the end, what? Will you collect a database of authentic awakened people? To what end?

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One thing that happened when I awoke is that my heart emptied out.

This may not be what you expected to hear. We’ve been told that enlightenment is the pinnacle of self improvement, so that should mean that all the good and noble feelings are amplified while the base and negative feelings disappear. That sounds great! Only, that’s not what happened. All personal emotions disappeared, leaving me with an empty heart.

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Beautiful Sleepwalkers

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Boredom and distraction on the spiritual path

Most people have no idea how their minds actually work. If you aren’t using your mind intentionally, something else will use it for you. When… Read more

Thought Loops: Self Regulation Starts With Your Thoughts

Self regulation is not the same as self control, will power or discipline. Many of you have expressed an interest in exploring the topic of… Read more

Reclaim Your Mind and Emotions From Thought Loops

Compulsive thought loops are so pervasive that we believe they are a normal part of being human. While they are common, they are definitely not… Read more

Q&A

You guys ask the greatest questions.
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Q&A: Am I Wasting My Potential?

This is the fourth in a series of answers to one reader’s question. The question posed several wonderful topics, and to address them in depth, I have separated out my answers. You can find a link to the other posts at the end of this one. Q: Did you go through… Read more

Q&A: What’s The Endgame?

Today we talk about the swag bag of enlightenment. And what happens when your bag is empty. This is the third in a series of answers to one reader’s question. The question posed several wonderful topics, and to address them in depth, I have separated out my answers. You can… Read more

Reality Check: People IRL

Why is the reality of dealing with individual people in real life so different than how we feel about people in general? Q: It’s funny, when I think about others, I feel what might be called an impersonal love, it’s beautiful. But when I actually come into contact with them,… Read more

Q&A: Figuring Out Who is Enlightened and Who is Not and How to Become Enlightened

Charlatans, damn charlatans. How does one become enlightened?  Q: This woman claims to be awake. [URL of said woman’s website]. Sorry, but…no. Am I being judgmental? Lilith: I couldn’t get through reading the page. I’ve no real idea of what she is saying. I think I got to the point… Read more

“We did not wake up just to haunt the world. We take up our fire and live.”

                                                          -Me

Seriously? Am I quoting myself

Who better to quote than oneself? 

This sounds vaguely motivational, but if you’re in Spiritual Limbo—a wacky quarantine zone that many of us take our turn in—this is meant for you. It’s not that we go too far into Emptiness, it’s more that we get unbalanced, leaning into it rather than remaining in the dead center—integrating Emptiness and No Self with Authorship and Essential Nature.

 

Exercising sovereignty over your own mind is like a muscle you’ve never used. At first, the slightest exertion of will seems like a Herculean effort.

People don’t make it past this initial trial. Once you get stronger and more limber, it’s not that much work, and you are thus able to gain more ground with less effort. Eventually, it is nearly effortless, and just becomes a way of life.

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Your endgame is being awake.

Not a more loving, evolved, productive, motivated version of your current self. You will not maximize your potential or find yourself or reveal the divine within yourself or anything like that.

You’ll be wide awake and experience a clarity that on occasion is almost too much to bear. Side effects include: bliss, ecstasy, the reflex to avoid people, the inability to carry on with the life you built for yourself, unknowing pretty much everything, rarely being truly seen or understood by anyone ever again.

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Paradoxically, you can’t get out of your own way.

You can’t allow awakening to happen. The you that imagines itself to allow and disallow and follows this path or switches to another tactic…this is the you that is seen to have never been real when you awaken. So it’s just this weird little kink where that very same “self” imagines it is going to get out of the way.

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Survival Guide

“I’ve seen through the illusion of self. Now what?”
Exactly. How do you live after spiritual enlightenment?
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It’s Just a Phase

How not to end up in a spiritual niche or dead end after spiritual awakening. Whatever your perspective of the moment, it’s just a phase, if you let it be. This applies to the insights and experiences you enjoy as well as the ones you don’t. For those of you… Read more

Fledgling Fascination with the No Self

Get over your {no} self! Let’s face it, apprehending that you are not a Self and that the Self you always took for granted as being real is just a sock puppet you carry around with you is pretty mind blowing. But it can also bring on an awkward phase… Read more

How to Engage in Life Again

After spiritual awakening, you may spend some time in the Hermit’s Cave. If it’s been a long time, you may be asking how can I have a life again? Whether it’s a literal retreat from the world a la Himalayan monastic cell or moving back into your mom’s house while… Read more

Some people will exit The Cave at this point.

Some will do it gracefully and others, not so much. For some The Cave, which is the movement of passivity into withdrawal, is self reinforcing. The longer you stay in the cave past your exit date, the less possible it seems to leave. You can feel trapped in amber while life is passing by. This is not the same as profound inner stillness. This is being stuck.

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We put so much effort into keeping the show going.

We don’t want to see the cracks, the creeping mold, the actual motivations that make up the foundations of the cherished edifices of our lives. We diligently maintain them so that others won’t see the flaws, but even more importantly, so that we don’t have to look at them directly.

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Sex & Kundalini

What is sex like for spiritually enlightened people?
Different.

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Does Eating Food Affect the Process of Kundalini or Spiritual Awakening?

Here’s a question from a reader about the effect of eating, or not eating, on the flow of Kundalini and the spiritual process. Q: Diet… Read more

Sex After Enlightenment: Reversal Of Energy

I don’t know about you, but my wood chopping and water carrying days were pretty much completed a couple incarnations ago. This blog will stick to… Read more

Don’t Let The Kriyas Get You Down

If you are undergoing sudden spiritual enlightenment, don’t be alarmed if you start making sounds, chanting, singing and doing odd postures.  It’s called krias, baby!… Read more

Siddhis

What kind of powers do you gain after spiritual enlightenment?
You call these…powers? It’s mostly just a freaky out of control pain in the /ass/. At least, until you get it under control. 

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Guardian Angels: Saving Lives, Sometimes

Getting out of a dangerous situation. Where is your guardian angel when you need him? I rented a scooter during a three month stay in Indonesia. Driving of any sort in SE Asia is a terrifying endeavor. For western-trained motorcyclists, riding around without proper riding gear in an environment where… Read more

Confessions of a Geosensitive

Siddhis From Hell. Today we had a powerful earthquake off the coast of California. I reflected gratefully upon the fact that I did not feel it. Not the shaking, mind you. Californians remain sanguine when their teacups rattle on the shelves. No. I mean feel it. You see, one of… Read more

Unconditional Love

What is it? How do I get some? I had a vision the other day. It was so powerful that it kind of knocked me out for several days, meaning I went into a kind of blank trance while it continued to roll through me. Good thing I don’t have… Read more

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